groping clumsily
i reach for escape
from those demons
of the each night
i have lived

and always
i have stumbled
and fallen

bane of my life
haunting every
waking moment
blinded by light
i have lived

and always
i have risen
and walked

as this shell dies
i collapse into you
my utter
fantasy
is real

and always
i will cherish
and clutch