how quickly i forgot
i established my heavenyou
in a judas project
writhing in my splintered
dream, left with nothing
except this suicide object

always so sweet
you seemed to this
kid in a candy store
but with you gone,
seems like a blackwidow
guillotine anymore

and as i swallow
the steel blackhole
and all it contains,
pulling the trigger,
i wish for heavenyou.
losing what sanity remains